been forever... what to say? hmmm.... works a chore, i'm sure everyone feels that. but do you ever feel like you need a sweeping change? i get so bored of day-in-day out stuff and feel confined to the doldrums of the everyday living.

sure I can secretly learn japanese (japanesepodcast101.com). i can secretly pine for the chance to live in another country doing something that makes an impact on peoples lives.

i'm at that place where i need to feel alive again... there are moments but it's almost like i'm an actor in a play just following a script. have you ever felt like you just are observing yourself? you should eat like this, say this, fuck like this, dont say that, say this instead.

it's really boring... i guess i want chaos, extremes of bad and good, how good is good when you have nothing to compare it to, other than distant memories?

at the end of it all i guess it comes down to this:

i'll take two days of hell and one day of heaven over three days of "ok"

where am I going, what am I doing?

where are you going? what are you doing? let me say something to cause chaos....

sometimes i dont feel anything at all... do you feel the same?.... sometimes, all the time? why dont we all leave while we can still tolerate each other. show me some emotion, hatred, rage, love, infatuation, i dont care. so what if i cheated on all of you today? who really cares, at least it would be interesting. at least we can both remember that, a defining moment rather than "oh yeah.. sorry i dont remember the time we did that"

How I've Changed... or not...

if you see one movie, see 'perfume' with alan rickman... jesus

http://www.perceptivepixel.com/

http://www.fastcompany.com/magazine/112/open_features-canttouchthis.html

http://cs.nyu.edu/~jhan/

JESUS CHRIST ALL MIGHTY, I WANT ALL MY WALLS TO BE THIS!!!

kingdom hearts III

Movie down the page!

http://www.kingdomhearts3.net/

So I want to camp and get a Playstation3 anyone want to come with? Afterwards a crazy PS3 party?

Been awhile but felt I needed to post in fear of LJ deleting my account for in-activity that and I have an awesome reason to post (read: gloat)... Went on a much needed trip with Ashley to London. Been awhile since I went overseas, last time was Cape Town god knows how long ago, and that wasn't really a trip, not in the 'i'm gonna have so much fun' way at least...

Anyway pictures abound, culled them down a bit. Highlights of the trip include Harry Potter filming at Westminster (they closed the tubes), castles, castles, and more castles, parks, a trip to Scotland for edborough castle, mummies, dead-people, and coffins. That an the general feeling that I would really like to live there for an extended amount of time.

Various Sites

White Tower / Tower Of London

Edborough Castle

Harry Potter

Coffins, Hryos

Standard LJ Whore Shot

The new cat, if it was missed

Drunkin crazyness is today let me know you are comming
People so far: Bucket, Dan, Buckets' GF, Matt, Jeremy?, Heather, Kat, Luis, Jess
People can bring whom-ever they like except for that custard kid.
Be nice if Joey & Big-Jason came but, again, I dont have their numbers.
Should be a good time lots of booze anyway ;)

Directions:

Seven Oaks Apartment Complex

Phone: 813-464-0738

Please give me a call or comment in LJ if you aren't comming or have a change in plans as I am buying crap loads of goods and I dont want that money spent and people not show up.

party info

Party this weekend for those that want to come! If its too short term notice I can move it to next friday/saturday. If you want to come just sign up below, or give me a call 813-464-0738.

wow i havn't updated in forever...
short clips from the life: 'working at raymond james financial in st pete...', 'kingdom hearts II', 'tomb raider', 'excercise'

i want to throw a party like the old days, anyone interested?